this too shall pass...

Over the past few days I have been filtering a plethora of emotions that range from utter shock to fear of the unknown. These feelings at times leave me feeling desperate...devastated. I can not wrap my mind around my father's recent diagnosis nor do I want to actually. He started chemotherapy today. This makes it real & the thought of my precious daddy having to go through this makes me flat out ill. So I am left with this....a choice. I can allow these emotions to keep me on a roller coaster that will eventually leave me haggard and worn or I can stand firm,dig in my heels and remember to whom I and my father belong. We are both children of the Most High God, bought with a price, precious in His site. I again am reminded to TRUST Him with EVERYTHING. My father often reminds me of the scripture found in Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." He's got it right, God has wonderful thoughts of good towards my father & me for that matter.Thoughts that are more full of perfect love than I could ever fathom. I also know deep down that God's promises are true & that every single word of scripture is nothing less than solid truth. When He said in Isaiah 53:5... by His stripes we are healed" He meant it! Every single word. That goes for ALL promises made to us in the Bible. I choose today to stand firm in my faith and claim what is rightfully ours as joint heirs in the Kingdom...knowing that if every single hair on our head numbered & known by God than God is concerned with what concerns me & above all, I can TRUST in Him.

1 Corinthians 8:3 "The man who loves God is known by God."

Katie

held close...

Thoughts of His concern for our every need flood my mind today. Be it fear, worry, doubt...He patiently waits for me to turn it over in His hands. Watching to see how long I will wrestle with these emotions, longing to take it from my grasp just to give me relief. Oh why do we hold on so tight to feelings that have no power over us. The very things that Jesus himself left the throne to conquer on our behalf by the spilling of His precious blood. Will I choose to claim the victory that is rightfully mine or choose to re-crucify Him when I try and battle anything alone denying His power to handle it for me. It boils down to trust...will I trust that His will no matter what it is, is 100% best for me? Will I accept that His Word is truth & that the real power (scripture) lay at my fingertips....ready to be absorbed to my core & proclaimed with my tongue... Isaiah 55:11 "so shall my word be that goes forth from my mouth; it shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it." We have been made for His glory to accomplish more than our feeble minds have the ability to dream about. He longs for us to walk in our Kingdom authority instead of being hung up on the cares of this world. He longs for us to trust Him for our next step because it's in trusting Him that faith grows and its in our faith that God is pleased.  I choose to trust God, to have huge crazy faith in His power,to be held close to Him the very same way as a mother I hold my babies...   Without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. Hebrews 11:6


Katie

His love...

Because I have experienced His love....I've been consumed. By a love so deep, so real, so intoxicating. He is my First Love, my Redeemer, my Rock, my All in All. He sustains me through grief, through fear, and through all the unknowns life hands out. He causes peace to reside deep in my soul, nothing else matters that is occurring around me because I can trust Him with my life...my very heart and being. He would never leave me or forsake me of this I am certain. He longs to bring me good all the days of my life. His presence in my life at time is overwhelming the likes of a constant high. I am fully aware & understand that to the world, my abandonment to his call on my life is alien, somewhat foreign to them...but I am not of this world...this is not my home. So I will walk in His love with the ever increasing desire to share & prayerfully transfer this freedom to others. His desire is for us his children to walk the way Jesus did while on this Earth, to become more like Him in every way...equally yoking together with our Creator & allowing His love to transform us from the inside out. When you encounter a love so great, so amazing the end result is a life consumed, never to be the same again, one that is sickened by the remaining sin present in their life. Christ wants to burn inside all of our hearts like a fire, refining, purifying, burning away the old....an all consuming fire (Hebrews 12:29). Step by step sin falls out of your life as you fight to pursue Christ and all that He has in store for you. In Him there is fullness of joy, peace unspeakable, satisfaction despite what is seen with the physical eye....he simply desires our heart...every bit of it...leaving us CONSUMED by His LOVE!

Katie